One Step Forward

1 November 2014 Just finished watching Anne of Green Gables ,  for the nth time..and it gets better everytime I watch it! This blog is long overdue. I am glad I am finally jotting it down.  So here it goes... I have read the book and seen the movie. I believe this is one of those rare cases when the movie is as beautiful and expressive as the book. I still remember the first time I saw the movie. I must have been 14 or 15 years old.  It was on "Hallmark" channel on a fine morning in Kathmandu. And something about the whole set up in Prince Edward Island inspried me that day. I saw life through Anne's eyes, got introduced to the old style of life, full of  eloquent speech and impeccable manners. It, in some ways, introduced  me to the beauty of prose and poems  and the beauty of imagination. It's a story about an orphan girl who's adopted by a brother and sister. They raise her well and they live happily ever after. The story can...

I search for a reason to smile A reason to live and fly A reason to survive But the search continues for miles and miles My heart screeches once again in the darkness of life Is this an everlasting pain? Will I ever get over this plight? I wonder if I'm ever heard by HIM Lying torn apart by the dreadful nightmare Never could I realize my sin Never could I resist the flare Then I see the missing part The reason for life's broken cart The reason for my helplessness To myself my heart confesses I never had a faith in my belief I never gave a thought to give Today my heart feels a relief When I realize..I have every reason to live.. (A very old poem..from 2002/2003)

I was flying to Delhi once, in 2008, I think. During the emigration checking, the security person said “Madam, bag kholiye zara” (Open you bag). I opened my bag. All was well, except for some medicine that I had that he was suspicious about. After convincing himself it was not some sort of addictive drug, he asked for my passport. And when he looked at it, he said, “Oho, didi ta Nepali po hunu hundo rahecha. Dekhdaina hai didi”. (Ohh, sister you are a Nepali, you don’t look like it!). I said... “Yeah, I know”. During the Delhi immigration checking, the guy stared at my passport for a while, looked at me, looked back at the passport, again , as expected, gazed at me and said, “ohh, to aap Nepal se hi hain? Lagti nahi hai bilkul bhi, kya bas Nepali passport hai, ya udhar hi settled hain” (Ohh, so are you really from Nepal? You don’t look like it. Do you just have a Nepali passport or you have always lived there?) All I said was, “Yeah, I know, I am settled there”. Now these incidents are...

kasto impatience ho yo... blog ma euta poora sentence lekhne ni patience chaina favourite novel ko euta page padhne patience chaina patience chaina aaja bholi khana enjoy garera khane, walk ma jaane tracy chapman ko man pardo ganna sunne samma pani patience chaina bihana bhaye raati parkhine, raati bhaye bihani parkhine time bitdai cha bhanera ho ki, time nai bitena bhanera ho, impatience cha.. kasto impatience ho yo..kasto restlessness..

4 years ago, a friend of mine asked me , "Where do you want to be 10 years from now?" My answer was, "in a cold cold place". Well, I had meant it literally. I was in Allahabad (India) then. It must have been very very hot that day, usual for Allahabad during summers. And hence, at that time I wanted nothing, but to be in a cold place, be it anywhere! And today I am in a cold place, again, literally. And this cold place saw its first snowfall of the year, on Thanksgiving. It really is a perfect combination, for me, at least. It was sort of a reminder saying "Here...this is what you had wished for. And today, don't forget to be thankful for having what you had wished for." It surprises me sometimes how we forget to be thankful for all the things that we have, the same things that we had once wished for. We get used to the good things. We get used to bad things as well. But we never really forget to complain. When we get used to good things, we gener...

The more you dislike failure, the more you tend to fail because that's when you stop trying to succeed

Soul O' Soul Wanders all along Finds rest a burden Sings today, the old song Soul O' Soul Wanders all along Lives in yesterday And dreams of tomorrow Feels the healed pain Won't let go of sorrow Soul O' Soul Wanders all along So ignorant it is Misses the sunshine today the sound of music, and the joy it could bring Stay a while, soul O' soul Live a little while, before wandering along